Personality Disorder Diagnosis?

Good for you for initiating contact with a therapist! Each of us go through a very thorough conditioning process--growing up in our own particular family system! There is no perfect system--but we almost always blame ourselves for our imperfections. That is if we are "neurotics" --- or if we are the opposite,blameame others. Stop trying to apply a label to yourself and explore what went on in your growing up years! Explore you sibling constellation, for instance---you family system! It sounds like you may not have had any siblings. I was an only child and was taught to have consideration for everyone else. As a consequence, I never had sibs to experience give-and-take! That is a leaning experience. USE YOUR TIME WELL WITH THE THERAPIST--AND STICK WITH IT UNTUIL YOU "SEE THE LIGHT"! DON'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF!